Did You Use all that Stuff??

I’ve had two babies now, and while I’m by no means an expert, I think I’ve finally figured something out, something I’ve seen on dozens of mom blogs and had my own mom tell me hundreds of times (while I’ve rocked back and forth in a corner in a panic as I wept over having nothing for the impending baby). Babies don’t really need a lot. Really. I think I might have even said this at some point, but I’m not entirely sure I believed it. You might recall my little list of stuff that I really wanted waaaaaaay back last August (wow…almost a year ago!). Now, the list wasn’t very long (unlike my registry, which was big, then small, then huge again when I was told I was having a surprise baby shower a week after M. was born and had to register for some stuff), but one has to wonder if I actually use those very particular items that I really, really wanted.

breastpump

So, first of all, the breast pump. I, very inexpensively, bought the Medela Pump In Style Advanced from my cousin several months ago and I use it three times a day, five days a week at work (and let me just say, work has been awesome about my pumping). I really like this pump. I don’t don’t get a ton when I pump – I’m lucky if I get just enough for M. for the next day while I’m at work – but I feel as though a lesser pump would probably have totally messed up my supply and we’d be formula feeding right now. It’s comfortable, efficient, and I like that it comes in a pretty discreet looking black shoulder bag. If you’re in the market for a pump, or your insurance company provides you with a choice in what you can pick, totally go for Medela.

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Second we had the Moby wrap. Holy freaking God-send. I love this thing. I had originally received a homemade one from my cousin (the one who sold me the breast pump) and unfortunately, I’m a bit wider than her (she’s like, a fitness rock star), and it didn’t fit me all that well. Bummer. BUT my really lovely co-workers through me a baby shower, and as one of my gifts, a friend gave me her very gently used Moby, which fits perfectly.

But back to the wrap.

I’ve read about a lot of people finding it difficult to use, lots of fabric, tough wrap around, too hot for baby, yada yada yada. I have not had any of these issues. After looking at the booklet of directions that came with it and a couple of YouTube videos, I was golden. There is a lot of fabric and I don’t consider the wrap “poppable” (i.e. you can easily put baby in and out without rewrapping), BUT the advantages (super calm, happy, sleepy baby) outweigh the disadvantages. Also, in the super hot weather we’ve had in the last couple of days, I haven’t noticed any baby discomfort and I’m not uncomfortable, either, though honestly, everywhere we go when it’s really hot is either air conditioned or in the water, so there isn’t a huge chance for baby and me to get too hot.

Third, we had the car seat, and we went with the one our friends had. It’s cute and safe – all I could ask for.

cosleeper

Fourth, the Arms Reach Co-Sleeper. We did buy this and we do use it…most of the time. M. does go to bed in his own space much better than E. ever did (she was sleeping in my hospital bed after she was born, for Pete’s sake). That said, there are plenty of nights were I end up pulling M. into bed with me, letting me snuggle in the crook of my arm.

Was it worth the money spent (about $160)? Well, between the storage in the bottom (we have limited storage space) and the amount of time M. actually uses it, I’d say, so far, yes, but it also depends how long M. is able to use the co-sleeper. If I only get six months out of it, I don’t know if it will have been worth it for our family.

clothdiapers

Finally, the cloth diapers. While I had thought we would have to spend a whole bunch of money on them, it ended up not being a whole lot. I bought about 10 cloth pocket diapers (a waterproof cloth shell with a microfiber insert) from my cousin (yep, same cousin as before) for about $30 and then my mom gave me a dozen for Christmas. I was also given a dozen gDiapers from a friend at work (the same friend who gave me her Moby).

Do we use the cloth diapers? Heck yes we do! Do we use them all the time? Nope, but only because we were given a crap ton of disposables (which we STILL haven’t gotten all the way through). As soon as the disposables are gone/no longer fit, I’m cloth diapering exclusively.

I love, love, love the brand of cloth diaper we use (Kawaii). They’re inexpensive (less than $6 a diaper), hold up well, don’t leak, and are pretty cute (always important, right?). I also enjoyed the gDiapers when M. was smaller, but I felt they were a bit leakier and I didn’t like how I would have had to buy larger sizes as M. got bigger if I had decided to use those (I just had size small, which only goes up to 14 lbs., so they’re too small for M. now).

So, I think that about covers it all. There are a few other things I had wanted and ended up getting and loving (my Boppy, for one), but this post is already way too long. So far, I’m really happy that I don’t have any useless baby items, and I’m hoping when we go round three (yep, I’m already thinking about another kiddo) we won’t have much of anything to buy!

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A Birth Story

I’ve been absent for a bit, as some who occasionally browse this blog may have noticed. Considering the prodigious number of posts I’ve done on the impending arrival of my new little man, you might be able to guess the reason for my absence.

Finally, finally, finally, after 42 weeks even of pregnancy, our man arrived February 22nd at 12:56 pm. He was 9 lbs 13 oz and 22 3/4 inches long. A big boy for sure! However, he was  (and is) completely and utterly perfect.

The big question now might be if I got my VBAC or not. Wow, well, where to begin with that story. The short answer might be disappointing – no, I did not get my VBAC. However, I’m not sad about it, as I might have thought I would be a few months ago (or even a few weeks ago).

This is how it all went down.

As I entered my February break from work still pregnant and went to my last prenatal appointment that Tuesday, I was pretty much at my breaking point emotionally. I felt like I was never going to go into labor naturally. I just wanted my baby in my arms. My OB gave me the option of scheduling a c-section for Friday and if I went into labor before then, then I could proceed with attempting my VBAC as planned. If I didn’t schedule a c-section for Friday then I’d have to schedule one for the following Monday.

After a lot of thought, I went ahead and scheduled a section for Friday. I was having tremendous amounts of anxiety and just felt that if I didn’t go into labor on my own by Friday it likely wasn’t going to happen before Monday.

Well, lo-and-behold, I went into labor on my own (a big achievement, in my mind, since I felt I might not be capable of going into labor by myself) Thursday night. I went in to the hospital at my scheduled time for my c-section, but explained that I had started labor and was hoping that we could see how things were going to progress and possible even let me go home. My OB was on board so long as I had another biophysical profile done to check on the status of the baby.

Well, while the baby seemed to be doing pretty well, he was still measuring very large and his amniotic fluid was super low. My OB was very firm in that she wanted me to have a c-section, almost to the point where I felt a bit betrayed by her 180 degree turn on the VBAC front. That said, I was starting to feel like a c-section might be the best course of action…under certain stipulations.

I wanted, if there was nothing immediately wrong with the baby, to have him given to me right away. No whisking the baby off to be vigorously dried off, poked and prodded, and wrapped up tight so there was a thick swaddling blanket between the two of us as my husband dangled him overhead. I wanted the baby passed to me, I wanted to take him in my arms, just as I would if he had been born naturally, and have him lain across my chest, skin to skin. My OB agreed.

Everything happened very quickly after that. I signed consent forms, had an IV put in, talked to anesthesiology, got prepped for surgery, met a variety of nurses and doctors, and in what felt like a matter of seconds (though it was really probably just a bit over an hour) was taken into the OR.

I felt okay until I came into the OR. It didn’t feel regret or anything, but the sudden gravity of what was about to happen hit me in full force. A mix of “Holy crap I’m about to have a baby” and “Holy crap they’re about to slice me wide open.” I shook. I shook hard. I asked repeatedly, as they gave me a spinal, laid me down on the operating table, felt my legs and abdomen go numb, where my husband was, when I’d get to see him, when he’d be with me. I needed his strength and comfort. I tried really hard not to cry.

But eventually the hubs arrived, took my hands, and tried to not show his own nerves. I felt so relieved with him beside me, especially at first, but as we started to wait for the baby’s arrival, my anxiousness started rise once again.

For one, I still had a cold. I had been getting these nasty colds on and off throughout my pregnancy (you may recall my brutal sinus infection at the very beginning), and this one wasn’t too bad, but it led to a really stuffy nose and a cough. Have you ever needed to cough while having a spinal? Really, really uncomfortable and weird. Between that and the stuffy nose I felt like I was having an asthma attack, but because my oxygen was fine, there really wasn’t anything they could do.

Eventually, however, it didn’t matter, because my doctor began to deliver our little boy. I didn’t get to see him right away, because, of course, that blue curtain was in the way, but a few moments later, the curtain was quickly lowered and my little one was thrust into my arms, bloody, squirming, and shrieking his head off. Perfect.

He lay atop my chest and started to relax, nestling into my arms, falling asleep. I cried as I kissed his surprisingly hairy little head and told him repeatedly, almost idiotically, how beautiful he was. I’ve never experienced natural birth, and now that I’ve had a second cesarean, I likely never will, but I know there is supposed to be high after you give birth. Maybe what I felt wasn’t the same, like I said, I’ll never know, but I was about as high as Mt. Freaking Everest in that moment, and trust me, it wasn’t the pain killers.

I got to hold my little man while the stitched me back up and got cleaned up. After a bit a nurse took him for just a moment to weight and measure him, then he was promptly returned to my arms and we were wheeled into recovery. Once in recovery I started to nurse him (a struggle at first, but now, nearly eight weeks later, we’re going strong) and bonding really began.

As I finish writing this (it’s taken me a few weeks, coming back and forth), I’m getting ready to start my last week of maternity leave. It’s been an amazing journey so far. I remember changing and learning a lot when E. was born (who, by the way, is an all star big sister), and the same is happening this time. I have learned so much about myself as a person and a mother. I am slowly coming to realize what is important, what my strengths are, and, most certainly, my weaknesses. Above all, I’ve come to see even more strongly, just how precious my little family is and how very lucky we are. I wouldn’t change it for anything and I’d happily do it all over again.

Week 39

Week 39 (February 1 – February 8) 

Estimated Due Date: February 8th, 2013

Symptoms: I’ve been getting really crampy, as well as have more Braxton Hicks and the very rare (maybe two?) more painful contractions (but nothing too exciting). 

Body Changes: Achey hips and pelvis, and my baby belly has dropped 

Cravings: Peanut butter and chocolate, for a change; Raisin Bran!!

High Point:  Continuing to have a happy, healthy baby growing inside of me! 🙂

Low Point: I’m just tired, sore, and ready for this pregnancy to be over. What’s more, I was checked again and there wasn’t any change. Again, I know it’s incredibly foolish to care this much about the status of my cervix, but it’s hard to not take it to heart.  

What I did to prepare this week: Continuing to struggle to keep things organized and clean. 

Paranoid Moment: Every little thing feels like it could be labor, or prelabor or SOMETHING, but ends up not. Very frustrating and disappointing and it puts me on edge.

What’s going on “in there”: The folks at BabyCenter say: 

“Your baby’s waiting to greet the world! He continues to build a layer of fat to help control his body temperature after birth, but it’s likely he already measures about 20 inches and weighs a bit over 7 pounds, a mini watermelon. (Boys tend to be slightly heavier than girls.) The outer layers of his skin are sloughing off as new skin forms underneath.”

Week 36

Week 36 (January 11 – 18) 

Estimated Due Date: February 8th, 2013

Symptoms: I’ve been getting really crampy, as well as have more Braxton Hicks. Also, breast tenderness has resurfaced.

Body Changes: Achey hips and pelvis, and my baby belly has dropped 

Cravings: Peanut butter and chocolate, for a change

High Point:  We got the co-sleeper this weekend! I was so, so, so excited! We have it all set up next to the bed and E. has had great fun putting her baby doll to bed inside of it. I can’t wait until it’s filled with our real baby and not dolls, books, and electronics. 

Low Point: Some of my pregnancy paranoia has sufficiently subsided this week, so I’ve been feeling emotionally all right. Physically, however, I’m starting to really feel worn down. The baby is so low in my pelvis I can feel a lot of pressure from his big ol’ noggin. I felt really lousy on Tuesday (lots of headaches and heavy headedness along with crampy, though fairly mild contractions). I ended up going in to see my OB and having a non-stress test and exam. While everything looked good baby-wise, my OB said I was definitely having consistent contractions, but they weren’t strong enough to make anything happen (which is fine, because it’s not quite time yet for the babe to make his appearance). And when I had my exam I was not quite a centimeter dilated and my cervix was becoming soft and stretchy. All good stuff (and sorry if this is a bit TMI). My OB said she was leaning towards thinking I’d likely go on my own and quite possibly have the come out the “old fashioned way”. So, so good to hear. 

What I did to prepare this week: Got that co-sleeper! I pestered and pestered and pestered the hubs to go to the big city with me to hit up Babies ‘R’ Us, and he finally agreed to go, even though he was feeling completely miserable. This is the one we got. We also picked up a the starter set of these bottles at Target. I’d like to get one more package (I have a set of 5 oz. bottles and I’d like another set of the 9 oz.), but that can go on the back burner until after the babe shows up.

Paranoid Moment: Feeling much better this week. 

What’s going on “in there”: The folks at BabyCenter say:

“Your baby is still packing on the pounds — at the rate of about an ounce a day. She now weighs almost 6 pounds (like a crenshaw melon) and is more than 18 1/2 inches long. She’s shedding most of the downy covering of hair that covered her body as well as the vernix caseosa, the waxy substance that covered and protected her skin during her nine-month amniotic bath. Your baby swallows both of these substances, along with other secretions, resulting in a blackish mixture, called meconium, will form the contents of her first bowel movement.

At the end of this week, your baby will be considered full-term. (Full-term is 37 to 42 weeks; babies born before 37 weeks are pre-term and those born after 42 are post-term.) Most likely she’s in a head-down position. But if she isn’t, your practitioner may suggest scheduling an “external cephalic version,” which is a fancy way of saying she’ll try to coax your baby into a head-down position by manipulating her from the outside of your belly.”

 

 

Week 35

Week 35 (January 4 – 11) 

Estimated Due Date: February 8th, 2013

Symptoms: I’ve been getting really crampy, as well as have more Braxton Hicks. Also, breast tenderness has resurfaced.

Body Changes: Achey hips and pelvic joints

Cravings: Carby carb carb carbs…and chocolate!

High Point:  Two very fun things this week: First, I went out and bought some really fun fabric for a couple of nursing covers and a baby quilt for the little guy. I love, love, love fabric shopping, so that alone was great. But it was also nice to go out by myself and take my time looking for just the right stuff. It’s something that’s rare now as it is and is bound to only become more so. I’ll try to post pictures as I finish everything (I’ve already done one cover and have started on the quilt). 

Secondly, I finally got to meet officially with my doulas (yes, plural)! I’ve been meeting with these ladies on a monthly basis anyhow, because they’re the student midwives I see for prenatal check-ups at the Birth House. I was so excited to finally get to sit down with them and talk about what I wanted this baby’s birth to be. Early on in the meeting we decided it would be beneficial for women to attend to birth for a variety of reasons. For me, the biggest was I liked the idea of having two different styles of care and experience and the guarantee that at least one of them would always be there. Plus, I would have had a really, really hard time choosing between the two. I feel incredibly lucky to have happened upon this service, because in the typical doula situation, I would likely be paying quite a bit more (I’m only paying $50), would only have access to one talented lady, and wouldn’t have had as much opportunity to get to know and speak to a doula (they have been with me from the beginning, including pre-concpetion!). They’ve made me feel so much better about my birth. I know it will be great!

Low Point: The pregnancy fears have started to settle in, though this time around, they aren’t necessarily specific to pregnancy. More below. 

What I did to prepare this week: More cleaning and organizing. Also, meeting with my doulas and getting some baby related sewing done. 

Paranoid Moment: Well, I had a bad dream and it all sort of devolved from there. I had a rough couple of days worrying about things that were out of my control. I had also developed a bit of an irrational fear about losing E. I remember at this point in my pregnancy with her I worried about some pretty random things, mostly related to possible birth defects or SIDS. This time around I’m feeling very confident in our little guy’s health, but I’m more focused on my fear of losing my relationship with E. once the new baby comes. While I know I won’t love her any less (how could I?), I do fear that I won’t be able to give her what I have for the last four years. In fact, I pretty much know I won’t, because, let’s face it, baby’s take up a whole heck of a lot of energy. I think a lot of the fear I’ve had about “losing” E. stem from the very real fear about the upcoming change in dynamic in my family. 

What’s going on “in there”: The folks at BabyCenter say: “Your baby doesn’t have much room to maneuver now that he’s over 18 inches long and tips the scales at 5 1/4 pounds (pick up a honeydew melon). Because it’s so snug in your womb, he isn’t likely to be doing somersaults anymore, but the number of times he kicks should remain about the same. His kidneys are fully developed now, and his liver can process some waste products. Most of his basic physical development is now complete — he’ll spend the next few weeks putting on weight.”

Week 32

Week 32 (December 14 – December 21) 

Estimated Due Date: February 8th, 2013

Symptoms: The babe is starting to do those twisty movements where I feel like my entire belly is shifting position. I’ve also been getting really crampy, as well as have more Braxton Hicks.

Body Changes: Achey hips and pelvic joints

Cravings: Carby carb carb carbs

High Point:  We had many lovely festivities at school and then Christmas break began! And I had a lovely appointment with my midwives in Bridgton. As always, it went well.

Low Point: Things have been cruising along nicely, and other than starting to feel a wee bit crampy (like, menstrual cramps), things have been good. I have been worrying that the cramps could be an indicator of early labor, but so far so good.

What I did to prepare this week: While I am very much aware of my pregnancy, Christmas has overshadowed a lot.

Paranoid Moment: None that I can think of.

What’s going on “in there”: The folks at BabyCenter say: “By now, your baby weighs 3.75 pounds (pick up a large jicama) and is about 16.7 inches long, taking up a lot of space in your uterus. You’re gaining about a pound a week and roughly half of that goes right to your baby. In fact, she’ll gain a third to half of her birth weight during the next 7 weeks as she fattens up for survival outside the womb. She now has toenails, fingernails, and real hair (or at least respectable peach fuzz). Her skin is becoming soft and smooth as she plumps up in preparation for birth.”

Baby Prepping

 

So, at some point I might post pictures from our Christmas, but my brain moves fast lately and as soon as dear old St. Nick laid his head down to rest after the big night on Monday into Tuesday, the gears started turning towards the next big event in our life. 

E.’s fifth birthday. (Trust me, it’s already crossed my mind, a mere five months ahead of time.) 

The arrival of the baby. 

So, post Christmas, here’s what’s left on my Must Have/Would Really, Really Like to Have List: 

An Arms Reach Co-Sleeper

I’ve officially decided that we’re going to get, somehow, someway, the Convertible Mini, because it’s smaller and less expensive. Apparently the weight limit is 30 lbs., but considering E. just hit 40 lbs. at 4.5 years old, then that weight limit is more than enough. 

I also have a few smaller things that need to be purchased, like bottles (we only have three), baby shampoo, and, yep, I’m gonna say it, nipple cream. But really, they aren’t huge things, and it’s stuff, other than the bottles, maybe, that I can add to my grocery list and pick up a little bit every couple of weeks. 

I’m not worried. 

The next big project I have for the next few weeks is my hospital bag. Well, actually, hospital suitcase. Because I don’t know for sure how long I’ll be at the hospital and because home isn’t as conveniently located as it was with my daughter (45 minutes vs. 5 minutes), I need to think really carefully about how and what I’m going to pack. 

The biggest help in this process? Pinterest (link is to my “In My Hospital Bag” board). I love that site, because I can be an equally verbal and visual communicator. I like pictures and then the captions underneath are like the icing on top. 

Anywho, off the top of my head, these are the things I know I MUST have in my bag, because I didn’t have them last time and it suuuuuucked

  • A couple of pairs of my own jammies

  • Hair clips (purchased some today) and hair elastics

  • Shampoo and conditioner

  • Razor

  • Make-up

  • Snacks, for both labor and during the hospital stay

     

     

 

I do have other things on the list, particularly baby pertinent items (you know, like clothes and stuff) and items for labor, but these were the most important for me to remember, because, like I said, I didn’t have them last time, and, honestly, I probably wouldn’t think of packing these things without thinking about it ahead of time. 

But why do I have all these little beauty product items? Because, after you push a multi-pound baby out of your va-jay-jay or are gutted like a farm animal up for slaughter, you kind of feel and look like…crap. Or I did, at least. When I got to the hospital to have my daughter I already felt crappy (and you would too, at ten days over due) and gross – forget how I felt after a c-section and four day hospital stay. I was stuck using hospital shampoo and conditioner, a cheap-o razor, and a piddly travel brush to get myself back to human status post-birth. And then I put on the clothes I came to the hospital in. 

I’m not doing that again, no thank you! 

So, while I will be haggard and exhausted after this little guy comes around, I know I will feel better for having my own shampoo and conditioner, a decent razor, and some make-up (I should add to my list above a cute buy comfy going home outfit for me). 

As for the jammies, snacks, and hair stuff – 1.) You want your own clothes. Johnnies are not cute, not comfy, and way too revealing no matter what the situation. I’m packing a ratty t-shirt for labor and delivery (because that’s going to be a throw-away afterwards), and then a couple comfy pairs of my favorite jammies. 2.) I plan on eating as I please during labor, though of course, I’m going to try to pick items that will help boost my energy, more than anything else. I pinned some ideas on my Pinterest board. 3.) Believe it or not, I did not bring hair elastics with me to the hospital. My hair was a mess the whole time, got in my face, drove me nuts. And it was a totally gross rats’ nest after delivery, too, and stayed that way until I went home. Not happening this time. In fact, I’m thinking of asking one my best friends to come in and French braid my hair for me after the baby comes, so it’s out of my way, but looks nice (and I can get away with sleeping in it for a couple of days). 

And, speaking of hair, in addition to buying some hair clips and elastics today, I also got my hair done, because it needed it and I’ve vowed to not go into the hospital looking like a total slob. 

Whatcha think?

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It so, so needed to be done and feels so, so much better! I’m totally ready to have another baby, right? 

Week 30!

Week 30 (November 30 – December 7) 

Estimated Due Date: February 8th, 2013

Symptoms: Braxton-Hicks and lots and lots of movement!

Body Changes: Growing a belly and more milk production

Cravings: Carby carb carb carbs

High Point:  E. attended her sibling class. It was a neat class and totally appropriate for a four year old, especially since it involved E. getting to play with her very own baby doll. They talked about how carefully hold baby brother or sister, discussed how babies demand a lot of attention from mommy and daddy, and that big brothers and sisters can be great helpers and that their parents still love them every bit as they always have. E. really liked it and I think it helped her have a slightly better idea of what it to expect when her brother finally arrives. 

Low Point: Overall, this was a pretty great week.

What I did to prepare this week:  The sibling class was pretty much it.

Paranoid Moment: None that I can think of.

What’s going on “in there”: The folks at BabyCenter say: “Your baby’s about 15.7 inches long now, and she weighs almost 3 pounds (like a head of cabbage). A pint and a half of amniotic fluid surrounds her, but that volume will decrease as she gets bigger and takes up more room in your uterus. Her eyesight continues to develop, though it’s not very keen; even after she’s born, she’ll keep her eyes closed for a good part of the day. When she does open them, she’ll respond to changes in light but will have 20/400 vision — which means she can only make out objects a few inches from her face. (Normal adult vision is 20/20.)”

Week 29

*Note: I’m about six weeks behind at this point…which is crazy to think about, because I’ve only got about six weeks left!

Week 29 (November 23 – November 30) 

Estimated Due Date: February 8th, 2013

Symptoms: Braxton-Hicks and lots and lots of movement!

Body Changes: Growing a belly and more milk production

Cravings: Carby carb carb carbs

High Point:  My mom got to come with me to one of my birth classes this week! The hubs had to work and since my mom is my fill in birth partner until the hubs is able to show up, should he be at work when the whole show starts, I thought it would be cool for her to go (rather than be alone). My mom has such a great sense of humor about stuff and is really supportive, so having her there was really nice. I think my birth classmates enjoyed having her there, as well.

Oh, and update – I passed my glucose test 🙂

Low Point: Overall, this was a pretty great week.

What I did to prepare this week:  Some organization, making of lists…the usual.

Paranoid Moment: None that I can think of.

What’s going on “in there”: The folks at BabyCenter say: “Your baby now weighs about 2 1/2 pounds (like a butternut squash) and is a tad over 15 inches long from head to heel. His muscles and lungs are continuing to mature, and his head is growing bigger to make room for his developing brain. To meet his increasing nutritional demands, you’ll need plenty of protein, vitamins C, folic acid, and iron. And because his bones are soaking up lots of calcium, be sure to drink your milk (or find another good source of calcium, such as cheese, yogurt, or enriched orange juice). This trimester, about 250 milligrams of calcium are deposited in your baby’s hardening skeleton each day.”

Week 27 (Getting There!!)

Week 27  (November 9 – November 16) 

Estimated Due Date: February 8th, 2013

Symptoms: Braxton-Hicks and all that jazz 

Body Changes: Growing a belly and more milk production  

Cravings: Carby carb carb carbs (Yay for Thanksgiving right around the corner!!)

High Point:  I saw the Birth House midwives three times this week! Once, on Saturday for “green” pregnancy consultation with Tiffany, who will also be my doula (more on the consultation below). Then again on Monday for my birth class (which my mom got to attend). And then again for an appointment the following Wednesday. It was a busy week! The thing I love about these midwives (and student midwives) is their really, really relaxed, but still practical, approach to pregnancy and birth. It makes me feel confident about how my body is handling everything and that, in reality, I can’t screw this process up. I’m made to do it. Plus, they’re a really super nice and funny group of people and I enjoy seeing them!

Low Point: During the second birth class, I did start to feel a bit unnerved about the idea of possibly having another c-section and the different things that could possibly get in my way of accomplishing that. I am very concerned about continuous monitoring and fear that it will restrict my movement so much that I won’t be able to use the various comfort measures that I’d like to use. It’s something I brought up during the class (and I got some super encouraging words from one of the other mamas-to-be there as well as from the instructors). That helped, but I also left with the plan to discuss my worries with my OB since she’ll be the one in charge of my care (kind of) when I am giving birth. 

I also have a wicked nasty cold that took a turn for the worse this week. 😦

What I did to prepare this week: Birth class! 

And I had my “green” pregnancy consultation. What this was basically an opportunity for me to learn about green living and what I can and should (versus can’t/shouldn’t) put into my home and body. Tiffany and I looked at the Dirty Dozen and Clean Fifteen in regards to produce, took a tour of my local grocery store to get an idea of what is best to buy, and looked at the variety of products I use in my cleaning (both of myself and my house). It was a really eye opening discussion in terms of learning about how what I eat and use in my house and body can effect my health (I’m starting to wonder if my asthma could be much better managed if I changed up a few of my practices). She also introduced me to the website goodguide.com, which is so, so cool, but slightly addictive. You’ll catch yourself looking up everything to see what their safety rating is (I might have to do a separate blog post about this at some point). 

Paranoid Moment: I’ve really been hanging on to that fear of a repeat c-section.  

What’s going on “in there”: The folks at BabyCenter say: “This week, your baby weighs almost 2 pounds (like a head of cauliflower) and is about 14 1/2 inches long with her legs extended. She’s sleeping and waking at regular intervals, opening and closing her eyes, and perhaps even sucking her fingers. With more brain tissue developing, your baby’s brain is very active now. While her lungs are still immature, they would be capable of functioning — with a lot of medical help — if she were to be born now. Chalk up any tiny rhythmic movements you may be feeling to a case of baby hiccups, which may be common from now on. Each episode usually lasts only a few moments, and they don’t bother her, so just relax and enjoy the tickle.”